BREAKIN UP, GETTIN DOWN
so two weeks ago, my boyfriend of 3 years dumped me. am i sad? suprisingly not. am i angry? slightly. am i going to go on a mass killing spree? no way. i feel fucking phenomenal!
for so long i was so completely TERRIFIED of breaking up. the thought of being alone just completely scared the shit out of me, even though i’m 20 years old, and might i add, a catch. ;) i guess i just lost myself. that happens when you love someone. even though towards the end, there wasn’t really any love left, just fighting and snide looks and attitude and bitterness. not anymore though. for the past two weeks there has been no drama in my life. just happy thoughts and good times. i’ve been reconnecting with old friends, making plans, and going out a lot more. i feel like my old self again. except definitely a more grown up version of myself, one who is wiser and more mature and won’t go do crazy shit to cope. i feel like i have my head on straight and i am free, and at this very moment i can do absolutely anything. life is fabulous and i hate that i put myself in such a restrictive and maddening situation for the past few years that made me think anything otherwise.
anyways, going to a party tonight. here’s to new beginnings. :)







